I have never had a blog. This is my first go at it. Its kind of crazy to think i can write out my thoughts and have other people read them. Not that anyone ever will. Maybe i just want to do it so i can get things out in the open. Just the fact that i type out what i feel makes me feel better. I am a college student. Its crazy. Guys...school...parents...everything just adds up. Maybe i should explain that i live with my ex. I love him to death. However, i let him drag me on knowing he does not love me back. I don't have the guts or strength to walk away. I think i need him. Maybe i do and maybe i don't. Either way i am not in a good place. Its driving me crazy. To want to be with someone so bad. Yet, they care nothing for you. Then again maybe he cares and he is just not ready to give in. I need feed back i guess. Does anyone else know what this is like? Am i stupid for holding on? Its not like he goes out with other girls. I am going nuts. I need summer. I need time to get away!
me....
